• Brain dump

    Breaking the cycle

    At nine years old my sisters and I were taken away from our mother and placed into foster care for the fourth and final time. When the police showed up at our house and told us to pack what we could into our trash bags, this was not new. We knew the drill and the dreadful feeling that came with leaving what we were used to. I think the two of them were just as comfortable in the chaos as I was. We were comfortable with stealing dinner from the corner grocery store to eat and rummaging through the neighborhood dumpsters when we wore holes in our shoes. We knew…

  • Story time

    Mirror, mirror, on the wall

    “Meet me at the park in twenty minutes.” My heart skipped every single time he would text this to me. The thrill of sneaking out of my office, meeting up with him, and disappearing to our secret spot to participate in my very favorite nonsexual physical activity, making out, was always a welcome surprise. It always had to be on his terms, because, well he was a busy man. Both with his respectable career and with his longtime girlfriend. So, when he could get a few free minutes in his day I happily obliged in filling that time. (I know, I know… trust me, there is nothing that you could…

  • Brain dump

    It doesn’t matter

    The power of  “This doesn’t matter” You know that moment where the stars align just right and you are smacked in the face with what you can not deny is a sign that the universe? That moment when you feel the slight pull in your gut and that voice in your head that whispers…. “BITCH!!You’ll need this later.” For weeks, you have felt less intense versions of this feeling but ignored it, Until now. It’s too loud and in your face to put your fingers in your ears like a 10 year old and act like you can’t hear. God got tired of your shit… He knows you’ve been getting…