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Lotus flower
“TAG!!! You’re it!!” I yelled through my laughter as I ducked out of Mrs. Williams’s rose bush, ambushing Jessi. She rolled her eyes as she spoke; “Fine, but stop cheating asshole! Or I’m going to tell your mom.” Jessi was my best friend. Really, she was my only friend. She lived right across the road from me in a house that was just as run-down as my own, with a mom that was just as consumed with her demons as my mom. Even as a 9-year-old child, Jessi didn’t follow the herd when they made fun of my greasy hair or dirty clothes, in fact, she once punched a kid…
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Wild Things
Today I affirm that I belong among the wild things. This morning, as I stand in my mirror styling my hair in double fun buns, little Stormy tried to throw a fit. “Oh, my GAWD… You’re too old for fun buns, people are going to look at us funny. Just put it in a ponytail.” She whispers in my ear She was always very insecure. No one ever told her that she was special. No one ever told her that she was perfect just the way she was. No one ever looked her in the eyes and told her just how magical she is. So, she never knew. What a…
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Do it scared
Today… I affirm that doing it scared is still doing it. Eight months ago I decided to do it scared.Do it all…. Scared as hell.I’ll never forget the morning I woke up and decided, that day, that life had to change. My ex and I had been separated for a little over a year.When we first separated he and I sat down and talked about the many ways we could handle the breakup. We had spent the past 15 years together.Bought and made a home together. Created a life together. Created a family together. Had a business together.Everything had been “ours” and now we were to sit down and decide…
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The meaning of Valentine’s Day
“Happy Valentine’s Day Miss Stormy!!” Donny said with all the excitement that a 9-year-old boy could possess… really, no one should be THAT excited over this stupid day. “Happy Valentine’s Day Donny“ I said with a smile, as we made our usual lap around the hallways with Bella, the school therapy dog after all the other children had scurried off to their classrooms. Donny was ATE UP with ADHD and had a mother at home who was …. Otherwise distracted… with her demons and five other boys in the mornings and would often send this child to school unmediated. Now, I’m not going to be the first person to jump…
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Today I affirm…
Today I affirm that what I am attracting is attracting me as well. Manifestation. The laws of attraction.Bringing something tangible into your life through attraction and belief.If you think it, it will come. While there is some truth to that last part, it goes a lot deeper than just thinking it and it comes to you. Can you imagine the world we would live In if everything we thought just came to us? I would live in a field of wildflowers laced with huge sunflowers throughout with my mermaid fin and my pet Unicorn. My prince charming would ride in on his dragon and we would live happily ever after…
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The Beauty In Rock Bottom
“I FUCKING HATE YOU!!!” “I FUCKING HATE YOU, FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART. WITH EVERYTHING THAT I HAVE. I SWEAR TO YOU, I FUCKING HAAAAAATE YOU!!” I yelled through gritted teeth and salty tears, slinging my arms around with balled fists in a dramatic display of hatred. All of the words, that up until this point, had been unsaid. All the tears left uncried. All the emotions that I had not allowed my heart to feel…OH I felt them now. It was as if someone had finally lifted the lid off of a pressure cooker. All of it. Years of it. What felt like lifetimes of pain, bubbling up…
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It doesn’t matter
The power of “This doesn’t matter” You know that moment where the stars align just right and you are smacked in the face with what you can not deny is a sign that the universe? That moment when you feel the slight pull in your gut and that voice in your head that whispers…. “BITCH!!You’ll need this later.” For weeks, you have felt less intense versions of this feeling but ignored it, Until now. It’s too loud and in your face to put your fingers in your ears like a 10 year old and act like you can’t hear. God got tired of your shit… He knows you’ve been getting…
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